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[05 Mar 2008|10:50pm] |
manny lost his job.
income tax went fast.(bills)
gabriel is getting huge and can hold his on bottle pretty much.
we start solids soon. im excited!
my mom in the hospital for broncitus. ick!
shes doing better.
umm i dunno.
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[05 Feb 2008|11:17am] |
todays is manny and i's 2 year anniversary.
i got him a beautiful card, and some slippers because hes always going out on the porch barefoot in 30 degree weather.
well im excited.
im getting about 3,500 dollars back for income tax.
im definitly going to spoil myself and save some.
any suggestions on what i dont need but should buy anyways lol?
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| life |
[27 Jan 2008|12:56am] |
uggh im so stressed out about money.
i dont like this.
thanks temples for that reallly wierd text to land line. i was listening to my answering machine and was so confused, didnt know that was possible.
i learn something new everyday.
well i got a babysitter last nite and manny and i went out.
i was belligerent, lets not go there. boy am i paying for it today.
i relized id much rather spend time with my family then go to a party of sorts. woah i really am grown up huh?
well goodbye for now.
i smell pot, 10 dollars says my preacher neighbor is smoking.
<3 kalin
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[24 Jan 2008|01:01am] |
its offically my eighteenth birthday.
i should be happy right?
at least i can get a library card now lol
i felt more like an adult having a baby then having a birthday.
some laws should apply by circumstance.
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| mellow |
[21 Jan 2008|12:38am] |
mannys been out of work the past couple days due to his back problems. hes hurting very badly, never seen him like this before, i wish there was something i could do. the pain killers arnt even taking the edge off. so ive been very flustered lately, i was really going to go crazy with how predictable everything was and so drawn out. manny and i got in a little spat today so i decided to get a baby sitter and take myself out to a movie, i got really cute knee high boots for my birthday they remind of the mocasin material so im glad i had a place to wear them. i really enjoyed it. no worries no bothers no argueing and no baby(i sure did miss him though) it was a much needed mental break.
the movie was cute too, i went and seen 27 dresses. about weddings and love and all that crap that i as a female cant help but love. love has been on my mind alot lately, they say everything that has a beggining has an end but eternity doesnt correct? maybe its like that with love, if its really really selfless non boustful unjealous unconditional love. i hope for everyone to find that. love if such a beautiful thing, expecially the love for your children.
fuck me, i can get charged as an adult almost, better go get in trouble now lol.
just kidding, for the most part i love my quiet little life.
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[14 Jan 2008|03:28am] |
well people not breast feeding anymore just thought id let ya know. yes obviously size doesnt matter cause my gigantic boobies couldnt even feed one child. but hes a little piggy so formula will due just fine.
any who
im just about worn down.
days are soooo long.
dont get me wrong i love my life and i love my son but for just one minute i want to get away. i need some passion and adventure. Manny is a wonderful man and i love him to death but lately he bores me. he could sit in front of that damn computer all day if i let him. and sex. pssshhh thats non-existent, but thats mainly my fault due to my hormones and the fact im so tired. besides if manny is going to be lazy around the house and say he can be because he works im certainly not gunna wanna fuck that huh?, fuck i work a 24 hour fucking shift. being a mother isnt cake work. i really hate video games and what they do to people. lately ive been thinking alot about single parents. i have no intentions on leaving manny but the thought of having to raise gabriel alone has crossed my mind. i need to get my ass in gear and make a life for myself and assert some independence. i need to get my ass in school and put myself on a path to money or god what would i do if manny and i split or god forbid something happened to him id be stuck with this child who needs me to support him. i have a medicaid apointment for gabriel on my birthday (which is in 12 days, the 24th) and im going to talk to them about getting some assitence for school.
im gunna go poke some smot and go to bed.
someone get me drunk and run there damn fingers through my hair
ehh i just think i need some refreshing.
loL
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[12 Dec 2007|08:09pm] |
well i finally had my son.
he is the most amazing breath taking stunning little guy ive ever seen.
i love being a mommy... being someones number one and care taker for all the right reasons is simply amazing. i love his little feet and hands, how i can hold them now and remember how they kicked me from the inside not so long ago. its still sinking in that this is MY CHILD, I made him, i gave life to the world.
i will admit it has been a little frustrating, seeing how im use to getting lots of sleep but its so worth it.
will keep updating and will add photos soon.
most of you have seen them on myspace im sure.
loving my little man,
kalin
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| well |
[17 Nov 2007|08:29am] |
how is everyone?
i have nothing worthy of updating about really, atleast not yet.
life as of right now consists of sleeping, peeing, cleaning, peeing, crying, peeing.sanitizing, puppy poop, and peeing.
i feel miserable right now. my feet are twice in size. i really dont walk. i waddle, and it is a funny sight to others not so funny to me though, feels like theres a watermelon in between my legs. my siatic nerve is all messed up, my hips keep popping out of socket. and im so fat that what ever side im sleeping on goes numb and i have turn over which takes about 45 seconds and is exhausting. and MY BACK O GOD DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED..im a big baby but thats okay, im aloud to be one for now.
what do i have to look forward too !!!
ABSOLUTELY
everything.
boy am i fed up with being pregnant, but i cant wait to meet my son.
not so much looking forward to being peed on though. well see. lol
13 days<3
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| what a great day |
[28 Oct 2007|11:11pm] |
my shower was a blast.
everything i need.
i need to buy some new born clothes though.
i have 100 freaking 3-6 month outfits. lol
thanks everyone that came.
your support and gifts were heartwarming and much needed.
i really apprieciate.
its okay to my florida people that i love, that you couldnt make it
wish you could of shared this experience with me though.
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[22 Oct 2007|12:35pm] |
so much to get done. but not enough time or energy.
dear god someone please give me some strength.
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| boiy o boy |
[15 Oct 2007|02:07pm] |
ive only been awake for a couple hours and im already soo tired.
i have lots to get done today and i have childbirthing classes at six.
does anyone know how to make no bake cookies.. i really want some but cant find the recipe anywhere.
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[12 Oct 2007|05:34pm] |
yay. our nursery is all painted and carpet was finally put in.
we can set it up now.
im excited.
mannys personality has donet a 180.
hes becoming more passive.
aww he has im gunna be a daddy syndrome.
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[04 Oct 2007|07:33pm] |
hmm is it normal that i hate my boyfriend. sure i love him.. but he really drives me mad lately, even tho alot of that has to do with my hormones im sure and i admit it. but im tired of being second best to his game and porn world. and being treated like the child just because im 6 years younger then him.
its not right that he does that. sure hes older and has been around longer to know things but come on man" treat me like an equal. im tired of being repremanded for petty things.. im not a little kid, fuck ill have a little kid soon.
i just want to be respected and cherished like when we met.
sorry needed to vent. im 500 miles from anyone who matters and have no one to talk to.
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[04 Oct 2007|09:23am] |
OMFG APRIL!
I LOVED AND STILL LOVE THE RONALD MCDONALD HALLOWEEN TAPE!
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| icky |
[28 Sep 2007|02:09pm] |
im really sick with icky sinus infection.
i wish i could live 2 lives.
then agian dont we all.
i want to be super mommy, but i want to be free spirted.
i hope i can find a comfortable middle.
is that horrible of me or what.
i am happy with my life right now.
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[24 Sep 2007|01:42pm] |
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life is so slow right now.
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